2009 has come this Christmas eve and New Years eve is the same as always no communication from Peachy, and i was hoping to see her at our Christmas party or anytime this yuletide season but as i said……… its the same as always.

The last time i saw her is at meyn’s birthday party last Jan 13 2008, which is obviously not more than 2 weeks from now, and uhm if my calculation is right it would mean last year, (just kidding) so i guess (but i hope it wont come true) if shes too busy as always i wont see her this time at meyn’s birthday party.

Is true love really sucks? well all this waiting i somehow get used to it, and loving it the more i love her each day, patience, perseverance and endurance, hmmm God is really putting me up for the test or is it just her?

Seems like you cant really put away a love that is  so strong and true in an instant, or is it me who never knew how to give up and never tried to put it away.

I don’t know maybe i always put things into a positive way, like if she’s that too busy and she doesn’t seem to like or love other person (not saying that she like me or love me too…….can’t tell.) well i hope (cross fingers) that one day she sees me as the only one left thats been waiting and loving her all this time, maybe just maybe well be together forever. (rick astley?, just kidding)

i kinda like the feeling of pain, uhm emotional pain that is….(bitter?) i always want to hear 80’s songs or old songs that says or expresses things like i miss you, or don’t you break my heart slow, i dont wanna wait, what do we mean to each other (choke)  etc.

when i listen to those songs i feel pain at the same time i’m having the feeling that i wanna love her more and wait for a couple of decades (‘coz thats the only time i think that i have in my lifetime) to pursue and embrace this love i have for her.

hmm i wont make it any longer ‘coz i think your bored reading my craft or should i say crap whatever you want to call it, its always about her…..its always been her…………. same as always.